Sunday, March 14, 2004
13:27
can't stop thinking of ur face;
hey!
so angry!!
getting angrier n angrier!!!
i shall put up wht i sent to asshole freak:
"mister if u think i'm just another asshole with no backbone well think agn!
u asked diana wht's wrong with me, not talking to you suddenly n for being angry for no reason whtsoevr,
well wht's ur prob now?!
i try to be nice n start a spasticated convo n well u dun want me to! it's totally fine with me really -glares
i wasn't being a stupid soppy spineless creep n i didn't enjoy crapping tt shit!
diana didn't tell me abt it just today in fact she told me wks ago.
i was contemplating on talking to u for wks n whn i finally came to a consensus u decide u dun want the shit outta my mouth!
well lemme tell u i didn't exactly enjoy it at all n well suit urself n i noe u dun care wht i think!
there's no need for u to anw n i noe tt!
all i can say is tt if u dun want another frd it's very much up to u!
i have said it n will say it agn - suit urself!
have a nice evening ahead n gd luck!
-glares.
wht's up with u!
-glares, rolls eyes n stalks off."
yups..
so angry ok!
-glares
oh wells..
-sighs.
i hate it whn i feel this way.
i hate it whn i feel the way i do whn i see u.
i hate it the way i just wna fill up those dimples.
i hate it the way i just wna wipe tht familiar smile off ur face. those tht show ur dimples.
i hate it the way..
the way i make me feel right now!
like a spot of dirt on the clean white wall..
such an eyesore,
such a worthless thing.
i hate the way i have to see u evry week
n i hate the way i feel all the above whn i do.
i hate the way guilt washes me thru n thru whnevr i just glance in ur direction. ur image just chokes up my mind.
i hate they way i feel whn i see u. tht's all there is to it. well that's all really..
:|
-sighs.
i hate it.
hate it all..
-lks grim
-screams a shrill scream
` baby can't u see tt i need u
12:00
can't stop thinking of ur face;
heyy heyy..
was trying to start a convo with tt freak..
but well he told me to keep quiet..
or rather the freak said "quiet"
so i did.
mmhm.
was like..i dunno..ahahs
-grins.
shldn't have done tt huh?
as in start tt spastic convo..
bleahh.. |<
feeling so stupid now..
ben go update lahh! grr.. -grins
oh wells..laters..
i hope.
` baby can't u see tt i need u
Saturday, March 13, 2004
10:54
can't stop thinking of ur face;
oh. n i got a 74.3% for overall on my damn ppr :(
disappointed!
RAHH
damnit :|
oh wells..
i'll try harder nxt time!
i actually got a b4!for moy
grr..
i didn't get highest for art!!
another girl did.. :))
oh! i topped the level in arts last yr :DDD *ego*
i wonder wht i must do?
HOW?!
HOW?!
*val has gone bonkers*
ok i noe tt..need i have u to tell me?!
i noe myself better than i noe myself right?!
kaypoh!
...
-sings "i'm sry i can't be perfect!!!!"
lalalalalallalalalala!!!!
-sighs.
-
SCREAMS
RAHHHHHHH!!!!!
joanne went out n didn't get postcards for me!!!!
argh!
-sighs.
tired frm the hyperness..
've been screaming n jumping n running n well..just crapping n evryth..
-sighs
` baby can't u see tt i need u
Friday, March 12, 2004
20:27
can't stop thinking of ur face;
heyy! :)))
today was ok.. -grins.
oh! n during assembly today the tch guys's "spokesman" gave a speech :)))))
thn at one part he was describing how awkward it was whn they first joined us? yeps.
thn he said "even tho some of us have exciting social lives we still found it difficult to speak to the opposite gender" and evryone cracked up :DD lols..
thn we have this sch diary? mmhm n we gave each of them one :D
ahahs..miss low told them "actually these diaries are only for our st nix girls n family. now you can have it, which means u r family" and evryone clapped n cheered ahahs :D
thn when the "spokesman" said at the end " this stay in st nicholas has given us lasting memories and we lk forward to more of such programmes" and evryone cheered n clapped agn :))))
cool.. :D
-hums along to the song.
:D
oh wells laters dearies!!
` baby can't u see tt i need u
13:37
can't stop thinking of ur face;
muzikalthon!!
ahh!
-grins like a silly thing
sooOoOoOOOo fun!!
for one thing i've changed my view of TCH [THE :) chinese high]guys :D
haha!
anw..muzikalthon is a um..fundraising thingy to um..pay for the repairing n tuning up of the pianos in our sch.
the target was to raise um..$10 000. yep!
n u noe wht? we raised like $20 000!! yeah.. sn rox :D
um..the thing goes like tt.
classes or groups come up with items that have to do with music -nods.
so today these pple performed their items in the sunken forum -nods.
i proudly declare i was one of them :D
coz the band pple frm 2 purity needed to play then they pull me along..it was ok lahh..especially since the audience seemed to love it *beeeeg grin*
ok. anw..um..oh..mm..mrs cheog [vp] sang..*ahem* haha..not very..nice..
ms choo [p] n moy played a harmonica duet with mr che on the piano.
mr lee choon seng played this..um gu zheng. i think tt's wht it's called..
um..oh! n this melissa person? got second in the national piano competitions? she played a piece by beethoven..
gosh u can tell she's a pro at it.. the way she sways along with the music n her fingers bouncing of the keyboard..her wrist bouncing up n down..she was practically jumping off the chair! but it was B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L
mm hm.
um..oh!!! n um did i mention some sec 3 chinese high boys r over at our sch for some exchange programme thingy? well they are over at our sch..
mm hm so they join sec 3 classes.. -nods. ok i noe tt's qt duh.. -lks away.
uh yeah so they joined sec 3 charity in their performance :D ahahs they sang perfect plan by simple plan..which is why i decided to put tt on my blog :)) like it :)) yeps they sang it with the girls..
mm hm then right, they did a performance consisting of onli tch boys! lols..
mmhm..entertaining i must say -grins. n they r brave souls :D
um..they sang this song by zhou hua jian..then three of them did some ballet dance thingy..got the whole lot of us screaming with luffter :DDD
one thing tt got us really hyped up. well..somehow -grins..not much..but um..
they cheered for sn! ahahs!
wht can be nicer than cheering for our sch?
ahahs! so we cheered for tch as well.. all in all it was a thoroughly BEAUTIFUL day :))))))
i think it's qt nice to have them over..n i guess they're qt at home..
coz u noe they play soccer with the sec 3 girls during recess or play basketball n stuff like tt :))
so i think tt's qt gd -nods.
at least it doesn't feel weird or awkward so tt they have to dread coming to our sch which i sincerely hope not! :)
um..oh n it wld be fun to have some pple over at our sch nxt yr too..whether girls or boys of course! tho duh guys wld be so much more fun..at least we u noe..get to noe how it really is..as in.. aiyah u geddid lahh.. i hope?! ahahs.. dun xiang wai ok.. :)))
then right, coz they dare not wear their shorts n shirts over or sth like tt, they have to wear the prefects' long sleeves n trousers! so darned hot lahh?! especially whn it's all humid n evryth down at the field during morning assemblies..
i alr feel hot..but then agn i'm wearing like wht? 3 layers? mm hm.
:))) today was really fun..ahahs
band had sec 1 orientatn..then we played treasure hunt, run all over the sch :)))
so proud of myself :D i always decipher the clues :D
but we still didn't win..we got 4th out of 13 grps ((:
it felt so gd to keep running n running n running..
n whn i got tired i told myself "run some more!!"
then i'd run n run until i was out of breath n had to stop..ahahs..
of course there were other grp members..thn we all ran..then they keep telling me to stop but i didn't want to :)) then whn i got really tired i'd scream as i went round corners.fun.definitely! :D
-grins. -grins somemore..
oh..n the weather..was..well it rained..stopped..drizzled..evryth was like covered like a sheet of translucent thing.. -lks dreamy.
yeps..it made me feel so dreamy..
but the running made me feel alive! haven't ran so crazily for so long..ahahs..so nice!!
i'm lovin' it!! pa pa para pa!! siao :)))))))
gosh..i so love today! -screams!
simply can't wait till sports day! oh yah..it'll be sports-cum-international friendship day, so international sch students will come over :DD
fun FUN
FUN FUN :DDD
oOoOOOOOoooOooOoOh :D
they keep teasing shue li abt her buddy[tch guy] some mingwei person is her bf lols..
ahahs..but she doesn't seem to not like the idea -grins evil-ly.
-sighs.
if onli evryday cld be so fun-filled..
if onli..
pple alwaes say if onli..
"if only"s r so disappointing..
because if "if only"s were "if only"s they'd nvr come true!
i hope u get me -grins.
OH! ahahs..mr foo asked if i want to join art syf :)
he says it's the first time he's asking lower sec
:)))) so honoured! he's asking me n this other girl :))
-sighs.
oh wells..gtg..
gd night darls..love yoooooo
mwaa` n hugs
` baby can't u see tt i need u
12:43
can't stop thinking of ur face;
"Perfect"
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
` baby can't u see tt i need u
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
14:07
can't stop thinking of ur face;
oh Lord..
i'm so tired..so tired of it all..
is it time for me to go up n rest yet?
i'm really tired.. take me up pls?
i noe it's selfish of me to want this..
but i really am tired..i am..
` baby can't u see tt i need u
14:00
can't stop thinking of ur face;
ooOoOOoOOOOooh.. frozen yogurt is soo gd..-smacks lips.
ok i noe it's late.. -grins. but i'll brush my teeth real clean? squeaky clean? -beams
oh yum! :DDD ok. on to serious business..
u noe i've been thinking abt just giving up in n on life..
as in u noe..drop out of sch or sth..n live life the way i want to..
ok..i'm not THAT mad.. well not yet anw..
i dunno if it's the weather or is it just me..
but..i dunno..i find these all a waste of time..
i dun really like it the way we dunno whn we die..
we can't plan our lives properly tt way..
it's like playing those flip-bk games or whteva u call it..
u noe..u read n choose wht to do frm the page n flip on to tt page for ur nxt fate..
except whn u play u can cheat n "go back in time" to save urself..
in life evry decision counts..there's no turning back..
if we knew whn we'd die, say i noe i'd be dying at the age of 16?
i'd not study..at all..wht's the point anw right?
well maybe i'd study but not go to sch..or maybe i'd go to sch but not hand in or do any hw at all..
it wldn't matter anw..even if i got a bad conduct in my reports bks i wldn't need to fret abt not getting into a sch of my choice because of tt coz it just didn't matter wht sch i went to or even if i wld go to a sch or not for tt matter!
oh wells.. i'll tok summore another day..
got loads on my mind..but i gtg now..
mum's nagging.. grr..
i want a com to myself..-glares.
i want MY life..
one tt won't affect another's..
` baby can't u see tt i need u
12:44
can't stop thinking of ur face;
oOoOooOOoh..didnt noe my post came up alr -grins..thnx anw sweets..but it's not u i want the hug frm! it's..someone else..ahahs..i dunno who..but i have this image in my mind..a body with no face (: ahahs kinda creepy but it's not u ((: oh wells.. i'll wait for tt someone..who comes along soon i hope!! laters!
` baby can't u see tt i need u
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
13:47
can't stop thinking of ur face;
it's been a wet day.. wht with a whole day's worth of rain |: it's no wonder floods happen ard on earth..-sighs. it's not all that encouraging at all.. -lks out of window and listens to the patter of the raindrops. the fan's whirring behind me..bro's making stupid noises in his rm.. evryth else cept these three interrupters to peace is perfectly quiet n still.. well not forgetting music.. heaven by dj sammy -weak smile. -sighs. wht do i say now? hardly have anything to say these days.. somehow.. not stressed or anything..just.. wordless? lols.. i wonder.. n i wonder too! oh n i wonder.. i'm talking sense. i am! but i'm not telling u wht i'm wondering ((: HA! not even if someone gave me the universe uh uh -shakes head with determination. ok ok..i noe i am crazy..haven't had the time to go down to woodbridge to admit myself in..nat said maybe this hols..but so many projects.. so i told her postpone to another day..we've discussed the agenda. -nods. in the day we'll laugh n squeal, afternoon we shall start dancing ard, throw money to passers-by and have fun, at night we'll start our nightly karaoke session and and make sure all our dear nieghbours hear us (: xiaojia might come along but tt yiwei say dowan to come.. wht a party pooper.. :D ahahs.. can't wait! dun u think it's just abt the fun-nest way to live ur life?! woo hoo~! yeah.. -grins
` baby can't u see tt i need u
Monday, March 08, 2004
13:31
can't stop thinking of ur face;
gripe of the day:
people who versify
their blog entries, pretending
that this is poetry.
hitting the enter button.
my foot. just placing
words on the next line
does not make for
particularly good reading.
for example, do you
think that this was marvelously
poetic?
no.
and to interject, i add a fuck.
ahahs! how cool..farneh! -luffs like siao
` baby can't u see tt i need u
12:20
can't stop thinking of ur face;
:)
` baby can't u see tt i need u
11:51
can't stop thinking of ur face;
i have this queer feeling abput hugging valentine..almost as i were hugging saomethin gthat had a life surging within it. A beating heart, pulsing veins, a churning stomach, a throbbing brain so full of thoughts and feelings. i could almost feel its warm breath on the skin of my shoulder and it';s warm skin against the slightly cold skin of mine..we hug tightly..and the feeling of life within valentine vanishes like the wind had easily wrestled it out of my arms initially wound around it.. i call out in a weak protest and look forlorn, saddened at losing that wondrous feeling. then i look back at myself. i realise i've been longing for a hug. a long, tight, reassuring hug..-sighs. yes. i know i'm loning for one..
` baby can't u see tt i need u
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